This semester has been one of the best learning experiences of my life. Although it completely sucked while trudging through it, God has been hard at work on my heart and the lessons learned were worth the hurt.
Before this semester, I never had to sit back and watch a relationship completely disintegrate. Make that two relationships. Helpless, responsible, lost and eventually numb are all feelings I spent the last four months wrestling with. And while I had to deal with situations I would have never imagined, my head hit the pillow every night (well usually early morning) in exhaustion and heavy prayer that things would soon turn around.
The turn two of the most valued relationships in my life took was not around, but down. Although some of the steps are hard to trace, the spiral was deep. I lost two best friends.Lesson #1: People change and the only change we can control is ourself.
If you know me at all, you know depressed no where near describes me. Dealing with these feelings was one of the hardest tasks emotionally I've ever had to overcome. You should also know I'm a people person, and here's where the good news of the semester comes.
I've always loved the saying 'when God closes one door he opens another.' This semester is an example of God's never ending provision. I have made three best friends I would have never had the opportunity to make otherwise. These girls, with hardly knowing me, have gotten me through all the drama and lifted my spirits when it seemed near impossible.
As the semester ends God has revealed another relationship to me. One that has been right in front of my face for three years.
Lesson #2: Good things happen when you are open to change.
My third lesson is self explanatory; hard work pays off. This semester was absolutely horrific. I'm completely insane for taking 18 hours of class and being L&T editor. I had a few breaking points, but feel stronger for reaching the end.
Change, good things and hard work; a recipe for a well rounded semester.
I hope your head isn't spinning for reading my recap. I'm not checking myself into a mental hospital, although at times it crossed my mind. I'm ready for a break, lots of time with family and this new adventure of being in love with my best friend.
